Pondering on today

I am in a dizzy kind of spell today. I feel like those friends of mine who don't know what to do yet about his death. I pictured him being there at our 10 year reunion. I guess he had other plans. It's hard to laugh when the media says how he went, and that he may have done it on his own accord. I have a failure to believe what they say. I see Joey as one of those people who is full of life and had so much to live for. I don't ever remember him not smiling. I remember him in my English class always making us laugh...I know the laughter is still there. He is still laughing and smiling, but we just can't see it. The part that makes it a dizzy spell for me is that I wonder if I should feel as bad as I do. I wasn't his best friend or anything, but we were friends. We knew each other's names. We shared laughter and smiles...Joey Eger is one of those guys that I was really happy to have known, and very happy to have memories about.